Why did things changed so much?

I guess nobody ever reads this blog anymore (:
Well, this might as well be my diary.

You know, i really am so tired of crying already. its not what i can control.
I just feel sad over some matters, and i cant contain my sadness you know.
I weren't like this in the past. Look at me, I don't know why I've changed so much.
Perhaps cause i'm too attached to you? i really don't know.
Every single action or words you do or say affects me a lot a lot.
Had you really changed?
People say "honeymoon" period only lasts for the first few months.
i hope that's not true when it comes to us yeah..
it really kills me inside when i remember the past, where you used to treat me so good, but less sweet now.
Sometimes i really wonder if its true when you say you're not tired of me. You are so Hot & Cold towards me sometimes.. Sometimes super sweet and sometimes really not caring about me at all.
I don't know who to tell my sadness to. Only to let everything out at night when i cry myself to bed.
I really hate all of this you know..

Can you treat me a little bit better? Pleasee... My heart really hurts like #$@!%#$%#.