What do you hope to achieve?

I admit I'm a hopeless romantic. I still remember the first few conversations and texts that we had. How we used to be so carefree and you used to smile till your eyes were just a thin line to me. How I miss those days. But now, I don't get it. It seems like you are always tired whenever you are with me. I don't understand how you could sleep at least 14-15 hours a day and yet you are still tired when you are with me. But just then, a phone call came. That happy look on your face, the way your lights beamed and you told me you gotta go. Just a phone call from your friend could make you so happy. Why couldn't I? What was I lacking that made you dull? I tried to make you smile you know...

And i today i asked you, "What do you hope to achieve by living everyday the way you are doing it now?". What frightens me is that you gave me that uncertain look and you said you don't know. Come to think of it, its quite scary when you imagine yourself not getting good grades, not getting a good job and not having enough money to get yourself by. That thought really scares me. I don't want to live my life just watching the time ticking away, sleeping away the days, or playing games which is what you did. I want to do something meaningful each day. It could be something as simple as organizing my wardrobe or anything which is productive. I've wasted 3 months of my life by just watching each day pass me by. This has got to stop. Its time to find a job, to earn something. (:

P.S. I miss you, very much.

On your birthday. ♥

One day, they will be answered.

xoxo,

C. ♥